part of my problem right now is that I'm experiencing some things I haven't experienced since I was a stupid little shit... namely just some issues that were never clarified or resolved or things I didn't let myself do. Maybe it's just time I learned how to deal with them the right way in the present so they don't fuck me up again. Like - damn. I know expressing some things iosn't me going back into the past - it's just paranoia in my head. And blah blah blah. I'm going to have problems no matter where I am. And I think I need to understand that so I can go to the places I want to go and have those fucking problems there. Sounds weird, no? Even if I go to place B, I'll still have problems. New problems. And that's appealing.